There are those times in my life that I have been stripped of pride, dignity, love and affection... there are times that my heart has been stripped of JOY and forget about happiness....
There are times that my heart has been left trampled upon the floor and I stand like an outsider looking down at it beating as a fish out of water hoping some passerby would pick it up...
There are times that all dreams seemed to have grown wings and flew away... there are other times that the dreams danced with the heart on the floor dying... laying there gasping for a breath . . .
There are times when everything is stripped away ... YET even in those times when I've allowed my eyes to remain on the Lord and not on circumstances.. not on those around me or what the world would say but allow you to speak into my heart, my existence as a woman ... that STILL, in the STILLNESS I feel you there .. I feel your breath upon me as you hear me pray and whisper your name.
I gather strength, not my own, but I am infused with you - your essence, your light, your care, your power, your might ... it looks different in this shell of me .... it manifests in hugs and laughter.. joy from the Lord.. it manifests in words of encouragement ... it manifests in YOUR words flowing from what once was my mouth to sing over those you put close to me ...
I'm not the same creature as I once was ... not enamored with power ... of what I COULD DO .. HOW I could make things happen.. seems like a life - that is not even familiar to me now ...
This season...things have been stripped once again and now the shaking starts to occur ... as I take a big step of faith going to Israel, way sooner than I was told I was to go originally ... and start to prepare QUICKLY everything I set my hand too .. seems to .. well, not budge or move .. even tho I know I am to go... HE is setting HIMSELF up for a spectacular miracle! My heart not too worried about it, yet doing my due dilligence.. then I find my mama is very ill and about to undergo surgery... It's like really LORD? ? ? Stripped and shaken to my very core...
I have no choice in my spirit other than to jump forward at what you've put in front of me ... I'm frightened .. but I will jump...
I will see my mama before I go ... and as I move forward to where you have me go Lord I give her and all I have .. I trust you...
Don't let me go ...
God... you say you love the contrite heart ..
you must love me soooooooooooooooo
In the stripped and shaken place.. where I am exposed ... find me in that place and I pray you say YOU are well pleased... I am nothing without you ... and I strive to be nothing apart from you ...
Poured out ...
stripped and continually shaken
